And just so you know I don't care if you think this specific blog is pathetic.
You can like, go away.
I'm not in a very happy mood, at all. I would really like to just go back two days please and maybe have that all over again 'cause that really was a lovely day...
And I'm probably making something out of nothing, but I can't help it. I can't even explain to people what it is, because they're not me. Maybe you've had something similar but it's never the same is it? Ofcourse not. We're all different people. So what makes you smile might make me laugh, and what makes you cry might just make me frown.
I've been that much of a green eyed monster, but this...I can't do this.
Well I don't think I can.
I don't do vulnerable and I don't do dependancy no matter who you are. I don't like it at all, which is why I find it so hard to tell people what is on my mind.
Normally, and honestly there wont be anything, I'll just be full of a certain emotion. I rarely have many things running through my mind at once. Simplicity is key with me. I don't need anything extravagant, I never did and I never will. There really is nothing more beautiful than a piece of plain white paper. Disagree with me all you like.
I should have taken that oppurtunity to talk about it. It was beyond foolish of me not to, but what can I say?!? Anything I do say just makes me seem like such a horrible person, which I am. That's not how I want you to see me though.
-sighs-
You know I'm awesome for listening to The Righteous Brothers. :D
Well, it's Nicole's Itunes. I can't complain, I really do love it.
She just made me Thai Curry SuperNoodles. x] They smelt all yummy and coconutty. IT WAS A LIE. IT WAS REALLLLLLY SPICY. :(
but yes.
Where was I...
Ah, Yes. I think i'll try and bring up that conversation when we're all in one place.
'Cause to be perfectly honest I'm a big retard and can't say this stuff to your face.
=/
My favourite Gal and Guy are not online, meaning I can't talk with either of them about this.
Eurgh.
I need a cuddle.
I need an amazing nights sleep.
I need to be as happy as I was when I could lay in a pile of leaves and have you lay next to me and not even need to speak.
Content.
That's what I was, but in a good way. A very good way.
I miss Chelsea.
I'm rambling now.
I have Lucozade for tomorrow.
WIN!
And I'm also doing 1-6 tomorrow and then going to Kirsty's house. Good times. I just need to keep myself occupied I guess.
I never did do sickly sweet, and although I love you to bits, that's what you are lately, and I'm becoming a bit sick of you...
I don't want to go home.
:
Please.
She walks in beauty,like the night
Of cloudless climes and starry skies
And all that's best of dark and bright
Meet in her aspect and her eyes
Thus mellowed to that tender light
Which heaven to gaudy day denies.
