I haven't posted in a very long time, which is rather bad considering this is a pretty good outlet.
I'm currently ill and it's that time of the month where I want to just rip out my ovaries.
So the two of them mixed with a lot of work to do and a ridiculous amount of practical lesson's including a rambert workshop on friday, which lasts all day. :(
I know I'm going to fail at that terribly.
I can't dance.
It's rather simple actually. Compared to these other girls it really is pointless being there. The amount of technique they have is unbelievable. I look like an idiot next to them, and I'm trying so hard to learn everything they've been learning like 3 times a week in proffessional dance lessons, in about an hour. :(
It sometimes makes you feel a little worthless. Especially when it's something you love. It hurts after a while BUT! yup, there is definately a big BUT! I get to do street dance for enrichment which according to Chris ( my dance/pe teacher ) I thrive at.
Which well and truly made my day. :)
Everything is moving so quickly now, that it seems so hard to grasp it fully, and yet there is a part of me that understand it fully.
Unfortunately some od it I do forget by next week but oh well. :D
French.
I really don't know where I stand with that anymore.
I love it so much, and I can't even begin to explain why, I don't even understand it myself, but I do.
I'm trying so hard, and it's all going through one ear and through out the other. My brain tries to hold on to some of it, as if it's a game of piggy in the middle and each time I'm in that lesson, my brain is ALWAYS in the middle.
I'm babbling.
:D
And I remember when a part of you used to find that cute.
(:
And unfortunately there is a that tiny little part of me.
That misses you like crazy.
There really is nothing I can do to change your mind, and I don't want to.
We're happy now. (:
You now for some reason I get alot of people wondering why i'm still single.
They do this whole "Yeah, but you're stunning and you're lovely and funny" etc.
But I am single.
Ofcoure I would love to be in Love.
But not many people realise that people don't want me. They don't want Sarah as their girlfriend.
But I don't really mind anymore.
I'm so used to being single that it doesn't bother me much.
It's just a little bit of a shame, I guess. >.<
I'm burning up now. :(
Oh double nose.
I need a cuddle.
and some credit x] I am very greedy. O.O
I need to sleep more.
Once again, my body has began to fail me.
"She never chose to exist, but she's never been the type of girl to throw it all away that quickly."
Sorry for writing a load of crap.
^-^
