This Cirlce Never Ends.

My hair is bare like different colours.
>.<
please ignore the stupid face.
:D

New favourite Paramore song of the moment I think so.

I got invited into a conversation with three of the best guys I know yesterday.
"Shut up Slut"

:D
I lubs them.
Yay for not having to go to work today.
;)


Little bit of a shitty start to the day but whatcha gunna do.
:)
It's all been edited now so dicks can stop creating shit over nothing.
¬.¬

but whatever.
I'm over it.


this circle never ends
and it's time you just face it, don't pretend
that it's over
this circle never ends
and it's time you just face it, don't pretend
that it's over

I had a nice day with Paul, George and Nathaniel today in town.
(:
Then back to Pauls for some fun times.
I've missed those guys.

I thought I'd never see the day you smile at me.

I'm enjoying this more than I should.

But I'm happy.


RedHead.<3

Okay.

I don't do new years resolution but let's roll with this.

I'm having a little bit of a paramore day.
:)

I can't be asked to be one of those people who everyone else wants me to be.
I miss me.
I'm going to dye my hair red soon, fuck going blonde.
too much hassle.
I'm probably going to either get it cut bare short again or leave it to get longer.
(:


I need me some Chelsea.
:(


I just spent most of christmas day reading the Paramore book my mummy got me.
(Y)(L)

my presents we're pretty cool.
Superman hoody.
and some random green one I'm wearing now.
Paramore book.
Cyanide & Happiness Book.
Tempted.
Dvd's.
Bare chocolate.
Topshop socks.

I am happy with that.

I need to get onto dance stuffs.
Clearly not going to bother asking you for help with french now. (N) ¬.¬

I think Chelsea should start on that task I set her, the fatteh. :)


I have had quite a nice day today.
(:
I think I might go downstairs and read another one of those books.
:D
>.< NERD.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I love her.
We tend to have this thing of not talking for a while or just being like *shrugs* but when we do come together we have some pretty epic times. I honestly think this picture sums us up. And she's just been declared my top facebook stalker!
I KNEW IT.
We got everybody singing WOAH!
I miss Paramore.


I love the fact we managed to get from being half way back to the front.

Guys, I can't even begin to explain how much I loved that.
It's that sort of feeling of being complete I guess.
I've never been happier, no one is as lucky as us
And...



This is still my favourite song, and favourite dance.


Talk to me.
:(

<3

Bleh

Because you had no idea howmuch this meant to me..

(L)

Today has been both a good day and an extremely gay day.

Well...

I got my dance questions today, ultimate fml moment indeed my dearios.

*sighs*

They make no sense, I hate being so uninspired by something, makes me feel that bit thicker.

That poem is so stupid. argh.

I think I might do the animal one but everyone will end up doing that and completely batter me and lower my grade. >.<>

And i'm starting to despise the fact I get prosecuted for not being a contemporary dancer.

I get it, I can't dance.

Fuck off now.

¬.¬

*thinks*

What happened next? o.O

Oh I had french. =/

LOL!

We had quite the jokes with Alex believe it or not.

Natasha and Sophie keep me so amused. (: I do lubs them both.

I love the fact it always goes completely off topic.

Me and Sophie didn't even do the presentation thingy.
Fail times.

Oh well.

<

Oh Sarah,Sarah,Sarah.

You're quite swag.

you should've just done it.

Things would have been so different, and it's so intriguing to imagine what it would be like now.

but.

It hasn't.

Urgh.

Get out of my head now, just land on my lips instead.

*sighs*

If you cared, and bothered to look at this, you would text me.

Simple as.

You put me in such a shitty mood I didn't even bother going to psychology.

Griffiths. HA!

I know I'll be doing it tomorrow, and I've tried studying so hard, my mind is just like no.

Sarah be smart.

College would be so much easier if you were actually intelliiiiigeeeeeent.

>.<

But.

(this is bare long and pointless, distraction much)

I went to collect Breanna after school.

Did some reasing stuffs with her, was really nice.

Then we walked past and saw Mrs Cullums dance thingy.

Year 5's doing there own version of "Step in time" from Mary Poppins.

Guess who now has a volunterring placement thingy teaching Year 5's to dance?

:D

And I'm going back to Aylward tomorrow to do some french.

I've missed Miss Bousquet. Bless Her.

That's why we sing for these kids who don't have a thing

Except for a dream and a fucking rap magazine..

Or for anyone who's ever been through shit in their lives

So they sit and they cry at night,wishing they'd die.

Gotta love Eminem.

S'laters.
xxxx

:)

I Love Her So Much.
She looked so peaceful when she was asleep.
I don't know what I'd do without my freak.
:D


I had a lovely time with Chelsea tonight.


Fatteh's.


:D
New Moon was lovely. Puppy dog eyes. >.< awww.


My feet are all cold. Oh Noseeeee
Ali G is on
I love him.
He's so shit he is good.

I hope you know that i'm seriously disappotined in you.
Who the fuck are you now?
You're not my friend anymore.
You're stupid for befriending that whore.
*sighs*
I pity you know.

*looks at chelsea*
You know what I want. So beg please. And you know why. So beg please. (:

Russell Howard tomorow.
Should be good.

Paramore after.
(L)


Then Into the Hoods.
(L)(L)(L) nomnomnom.


:D

Why are there fireworks outside my house?
This is a boring blog I'm afraid.

I still feel guilty for not allowing sophie to comfort me.
=/


xxxxxxxxxxx

I wish

I could dance.

So yeah,

I haven't posted in a very long time, which is rather bad considering this is a pretty good outlet.

I'm currently ill and it's that time of the month where I want to just rip out my ovaries.
So the two of them mixed with a lot of work to do and a ridiculous amount of practical lesson's including a rambert workshop on friday, which lasts all day. :(

I know I'm going to fail at that terribly.
I can't dance.
It's rather simple actually. Compared to these other girls it really is pointless being there. The amount of technique they have is unbelievable. I look like an idiot next to them, and I'm trying so hard to learn everything they've been learning like 3 times a week in proffessional dance lessons, in about an hour. :(
It sometimes makes you feel a little worthless. Especially when it's something you love. It hurts after a while BUT! yup, there is definately a big BUT! I get to do street dance for enrichment which according to Chris ( my dance/pe teacher ) I thrive at.
Which well and truly made my day. :)

Everything is moving so quickly now, that it seems so hard to grasp it fully, and yet there is a part of me that understand it fully.
Unfortunately some od it I do forget by next week but oh well. :D

French.
I really don't know where I stand with that anymore.
I love it so much, and I can't even begin to explain why, I don't even understand it myself, but I do.
I'm trying so hard, and it's all going through one ear and through out the other. My brain tries to hold on to some of it, as if it's a game of piggy in the middle and each time I'm in that lesson, my brain is ALWAYS in the middle.

I'm babbling.
:D

And I remember when a part of you used to find that cute.
(:
And unfortunately there is a that tiny little part of me.
That misses you like crazy.

There really is nothing I can do to change your mind, and I don't want to.
We're happy now. (:

You now for some reason I get alot of people wondering why i'm still single.
They do this whole "Yeah, but you're stunning and you're lovely and funny" etc.
But I am single.
Ofcoure I would love to be in Love.
But not many people realise that people don't want me. They don't want Sarah as their girlfriend.
But I don't really mind anymore.
I'm so used to being single that it doesn't bother me much.
It's just a little bit of a shame, I guess. >.<

I'm burning up now. :(
Oh double nose.
I need a cuddle.
and some credit x] I am very greedy. O.O

I need to sleep more.
Once again, my body has began to fail me.

"She never chose to exist, but she's never been the type of girl to throw it all away that quickly."

Sorry for writing a load of crap.
^-^

You can't be too careful anymore

Hmmm...
no one feels the need for a Sarah anymore eh?
Fine.
It's not like I need you.
(MASSIVE FIB)

You push me away, 'cause clearly your too "busy" for me.
Well no, you're not too busy for me.
You'd just rather spend your time talking to someone else.
I'm cool with that.

You don't even miss me.
I'm such a dick.


You.
LOL.
Choosing her over me.
I get it you've been friends longer etc.
But this is our thing.
And you know it.
AND YOU KNOW I WORK SATURDAYS.
Eurgh.
This isn't my fault.





No one wants a Sarah anymore.

*walks away*

Best story I've heard in a while.

She lives in a fairy tale
Somewhere too far for us to find
Forgotten the taste and smell
Of the world that she's left behind
It's all about the exposure the lens I told her
The angles were all wrong now
She's ripping wings off of butterflies

With her feet on the ground
And her head in the clouds

Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Ba da ba da ba

So one day he found her crying
Coiled up on the dirty ground
Her prince finally came to save her
And the rest you can figure out
But it was a trick
And the clock struck 12
Well make sure to build your house brick by boring brick
or the wolves gonna blow it down

With her feet on the ground
And her head in the clouds

Well go get your shovel
And we'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle

Well you built up a world of magic
Because your real life is tragic
Yeah you built up a world of magic
If it's not real
You can't see it with your eyes
You can't feel it with your heart
And I won't believe it
Cause if it's true
You can see it with your eyes
Even in the dark
And that's where I want to be, yeah

Go get your shovel
We'll dig a deep hole
To bury the castle, bury the castle
Ba da ba da ba...

It's been a while.

I haven't been on blogspot thingy for a while.
=/
Oops.
Sarah has been rather preoccupied I guess.
I got into college. YAY!
I don't think I've ever cried so much in one month before.
It's ridiculous.
Jees, I'm weak. *shakes head* Oh my.

But yes.
Dance :D
French. :D
P.E :)
Psychology... o.O :D
x]

I just ate some ben&jerry's cookie dough ice cream and now I feel sick.
At this precise moment Chelsea would call me "fattyyyyy" in that way she does.
I miss her. (:

I actually can't wait, I'm so indecisive it's untrue.
I'm not going to do Charlotte Martin's cover of Just Like Heaven.
I iz gunna do dis:





'cause I think it has a rather epic ending.
plus it makes more sense than the other one anyway.
Even though it's harder to work with but whatever.

I miss people.
Alot.
=/
Shiiiiiiiiiiiiit.

But me, Farhaana, Ismail and Vedat will have fun tomorrow.
:D
I hope.
I have to wake up early, like really early.
But that's okay.
There's something about early morning air that I love, a lot.

This blog was pretty pointless.
I'm going to miss Bells / Ezabella sooooo much.
I'm such a saddo.
but she is so lovely.
we we're like this.
*crosses fingers*

:(

Oh wells.
M'off.
<3

You could have knocked me out with a feather...

And just so you know I don't care if you think this specific blog is pathetic.
You can like, go away.

I'm not in a very happy mood, at all. I would really like to just go back two days please and maybe have that all over again 'cause that really was a lovely day...

And I'm probably making something out of nothing, but I can't help it. I can't even explain to people what it is, because they're not me. Maybe you've had something similar but it's never the same is it? Ofcourse not. We're all different people. So what makes you smile might make me laugh, and what makes you cry might just make me frown.

I've been that much of a green eyed monster, but this...I can't do this.
Well I don't think I can.

I don't do vulnerable and I don't do dependancy no matter who you are. I don't like it at all, which is why I find it so hard to tell people what is on my mind.
Normally, and honestly there wont be anything, I'll just be full of a certain emotion. I rarely have many things running through my mind at once. Simplicity is key with me. I don't need anything extravagant, I never did and I never will. There really is nothing more beautiful than a piece of plain white paper. Disagree with me all you like.

I should have taken that oppurtunity to talk about it. It was beyond foolish of me not to, but what can I say?!? Anything I do say just makes me seem like such a horrible person, which I am. That's not how I want you to see me though.

-sighs-
You know I'm awesome for listening to The Righteous Brothers. :D
Well, it's Nicole's Itunes. I can't complain, I really do love it.
She just made me Thai Curry SuperNoodles. x] They smelt all yummy and coconutty. IT WAS A LIE. IT WAS REALLLLLLY SPICY. :(


but yes.
Where was I...
Ah, Yes. I think i'll try and bring up that conversation when we're all in one place.
'Cause to be perfectly honest I'm a big retard and can't say this stuff to your face.
=/

My favourite Gal and Guy are not online, meaning I can't talk with either of them about this.
Eurgh.
I need a cuddle.
I need an amazing nights sleep.
I need to be as happy as I was when I could lay in a pile of leaves and have you lay next to me and not even need to speak.
Content.
That's what I was, but in a good way. A very good way.

I miss Chelsea.
I'm rambling now.
I have Lucozade for tomorrow.
WIN!


And I'm also doing 1-6 tomorrow and then going to Kirsty's house. Good times. I just need to keep myself occupied I guess.

I never did do sickly sweet, and although I love you to bits, that's what you are lately, and I'm becoming a bit sick of you...





I don't want to go home.
:
Please.





She walks in beauty,like the night
Of cloudless climes and starry skies
And all that's best of dark and bright
Meet in her aspect and her eyes
Thus mellowed to that tender light
Which heaven to gaudy day denies.

I Don't Believe That Anybody Feels The Way I Do About You Know...

'Cause Chelsea sent me the most amazing version of this song night. I'm truely thankful to her for sending that to me, made me somewhat survive last night.
I also like the way it's similar to most the stuff I listen to at the moment as well. (:
I also like the way it reminds me of specific people at certain lyrics.

I had quite a nice day yesterday, considering I didn't feel to great.
I woke up and had the yummiest shower, ever. Which immediately made my day. Then I spent the rest of it with Breanna. Watched penelope, which is such an amazing film. James McAvoy. <3


I'm currently talking to Shaunie on the phone.
good times.
she's shouting now.
Me: Hurrow.
Shaunie: is it me you're looking forrrrr.

x]

Jokes.


Bluntly.
I'm not happy.
Y'know that small vocabulary doesn't help much either.
But yeah.


Although I'm happy for Chelsea and her phone committing suicide and jumping off her balcony.


And I love how you can change my entire perspective of you, just by saying hello.

Love's not a competition but I'm winning...

I'm not going to bother fighting for this much longer.

Well atleast I thought I was....



Ice age 3 tomorrow with breanna.
(:
<3

This post was basically pointless.

(:

They didn't love their live so much as to shrink from death,
Inspired in their footsteps...we will march ahead,
Don't be shocked that people die,
Be surprised you're still alive...
All heads are bowed in silent reverence
The floor is wet with tears of sorrowful remembrance
The alter is filled with hearts of repentance
Perfect love kills all fear, rejoice in this deliverance.




I'm not quite sure what mood I'm in today, it's been a rather fluctuating day to be perfectly honest. Mainly revolving around that 'tard up there. we watch Mr Magorium's Wonder Emporium.

Oh and I've been watching alot of "Whose Line Is It Anyway?"
'Cause I'm awesome like that.
I've spent most of today watching the bloopers.
-giggles-

Epic times.


I have work tomorrow.
Which I'm not too happy about as angie and aaliyah have finally done their time.
x]

Oh well.
Lasagne for dinner.
Nomnomnomnomnom.

(:
<3

I'm going to be greeeedy (:

I need and want way too many things. it's actually quite pathetic...

- I want some chinese supernoodles. :D
- I want to buy a can of coke and diet coke and share with my bum.
- I need to hang with Chelsea soon. :(
- I need for my leg to stop being spazzy and hurting lots.
- I want some strawberry milkshake and vanilla ice cream.
- I need to stop talking so much crap.
- I want to go shopping 'cause Topshop and New Look have sales on.
- I need to figure out why my foot is bleeding so badly.. O.O
- I need to find a nice song to listen to,as I'm listening to this one a bit too much.
- I want to get new glasses, 'cause i'm starting to get more headaches.
- I need to make sure my nice undies get washed. (Y)
- I want to make sure I don't forget the look on your face when you did that.
- I want to get a huge bag of sweet popcorn and drink with Shaunie. x]
- I need to go get some headachey stuffs before my head falls off.
- I need to be more social 'cause my friends count is dropping.
- I want to buy a nice pair of shorts for summer (Y)



COW HORSE.
(Y)
awesome times.
I'm getting a bit tired of looking like a retard though.
=/
:(


Oh well.
Where be my bum.
I missed her today.
:(

(:::::::
Ahh.
Lots of eyes.
x]


xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Let's make It Last Forever.

Yes, Paramore blog time. x] Sh. Shaunie shall enjoy this. I've now heard two new songs from their new album, and oh my, I am rather excited. Yes, I did actually dance on the spot. 'Cause that's just how cool I am. I don't even care that they've become "mainstream" or whatever now. I love them. I truly do now understand what Chelsea means about when people try and like beg-fan. They know nothing. it's actually rather pathetic. I truly don't think there is one paramore song i didslike. I favour certain ones more than other obviously but still. (: Eeeeee. roll on 29th of September. :D For Shaunie: 1) Hallelujah. 2) Stop This Song. 3) Ignorance. 4) Conspiracy 5) Emergency 6) Let The Flames Begin ( With the Oh Father Outro) 7) Brighter. 8) My Heart. 9) Franklin. 10) Where The Lines Overlap. 11) All We Know. 12) Decoy 13) Decode 14) Misery Business 15) That's What You Get. LMAO. That's my top 15, like most listened to paramore songs. x] there's still like another 20 odd songs. I LOVE IT! =D I'm in a good mood now, considering the song i'm listening to. Ignorance is your new best friend... I'm going to go to Joanna and Christalla's tonight. gonna be so weird. haven't been in ages. it's gonna be one of those proper girly nights. like seirously girly. Eeeee. (: And I still miss you. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

(orange on behalf of her gorgeous hair! )

He Kissed My Lips I Taste Your Mouth....

I've missed this.


I've missed hot nice it is just to listen to a song, and smile because the mood it creates. That's why I love John Mayer.
I've missed finding songs that can alter my mood, quite easily or gradually.

I've missed associating people with songs as well. I have a song for pretty much everyone I know, no one will understand why I choose them except me. Nonetheless I do have one for everyone. No, They are not all Paramore songs. >.<
I'm in a rather weird mood. I do not usually miss much. however, at the moment, i'm missing alot if people, and things.

I miss him. I miss her. I miss them. I miss me.

I love how much I have changed. I don't even care if I've become someone worse or better. It doesn't bother me. I like who I am now, even if I can't necessarily explain that person. I am content.
Most of this is gibberish by the way.
Shaunie should appreciate my re-founding of my love for John Mayer. ( and yes I know that isn't a word...i think x] )

Ohh.

Katy Perry.


I'm sorry but many people may class her as a one hit wonder. However those people who have bought her album and bothered to actually find out stuff about her will know that she is unbelievably amazing..




I'd love to live like this, preferably without the dying scene. Thanks.


I love how ayshie is now doing all of this.
She'll get addicted.
I got so keen the other day when i heard John Mayer - Gravity in House yesterday.
My face was quite literally :O

I have dance later.
YAY.
(:
It's actually really nice because I missed last week due to being on my death bed and such. It's the last week this week though. :( until September..... Sad times. :O
What am I supposed to do on a Tuesday evening between 6.30 and 8.30?????
:O :(
House it is.

I want to change my hair.but I don't know how. I'm already sick of it. I might steals Shaunie's old colour. muahahahaha. (: 'cause that was Yummy. I had lots of fun at Ice Age 3 yesterday. Lets just say Shaunie has a huge mouth and can fit 42 pieces of popcorn where as I barely managed 20. x] big gob. And the fascination of everything whilst wearing 3D glasses was absolutely class.
x]

but yes.


Burst In The Door And Take Me Away,
Oh, No More Mistakes.
'Cause In Your Eyes I'd Like To Stay...

<3

And I've Never Said It Before

Eeee (:

I was just being nosey again and looking at Shaunie's bloggyness. And i started reading the newest one. Let's just stick with - we should be lesbians. x]
I just love the fact I can make her smile. I don't even know how,I just do apparently. Ofcourse, I'm no billy or petch but I do try to share my love avec Miss Wheeler. And i dohope she knows I love her to bits and such. I mean you just have to look at her facebook and some of the horrendous pictures of us together. We do have some ridiculously girly giggle moments.
And Shaunie..

Can I just say I don't care if you've changed or not. I mean you were amazing before, you always seemed the most down to earth out of all of them! x] Them. But still, even if you do say you've "changed" y'know with the whole "look" and music taste. It doesn't mean much to me. I still see you as the amazing girl i knew before hand even if you do apply less mascara now. But atleast you taught me well before you stopped doing it.
And yes.
Sarah does understand, for once. Lol, i rarely do to be perfectly honest. But with you, I just do.
You were never some "beg-friend" and yes you are worth something.
Apart from the fact I like being able to see myself in you. We've both made the change to "the dark-side" if you wish to call it that. We're still both unbelievably ghetto. (:
I do think you need proffessional help!
To be my hoe ofcourse.
;)
Gill shall have to teach you well. She will be your master. Think Karate kid gone hardcore prostitue. :D
Oh I haven't changed on the inside towards you either.
Dont worry.
3Ding YOUR MUM! HOW EPIC! AHHHHHHHHHHH.
And why is it you make me wear and dress the day it rains then magically turn sunny. x]
I wanna wear my shirt and shorts, 'cause i stoleded Farhaanas sunnies the day we went to Woodhouse. x]
So i may abandon you with that, OR wear my skirt. (: Good times. You need to stay at my house soon.


Oh and.

'So i sat on the curb and cried. They all stared. They all walked by. She came and she sat beside me. Holding her umbrella high enough for both of us, put her arm across my shoulders and offered hers for me to cry on. That was when i realised i wasn't alone anymore.' ♥





You love how I did this in orange, Our colour. (Y) We should be a lesbian couple... seriously.
x]

Mr G. House.

I know he's like 50.

But.
Phwoar.

I just watched my favourite episode of House <3 Y'know the one where he gets high ( i know that's like every episode ) and susses it's Amber on the bus.
x]

this all sounds so sitcom-like.

but it's not. Honest.

Oooooooooooooooooooooooooh.
I love him.
(:







http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fpJ8A3WFQQM




It wouldn't let me embed it.
but it's still pretty.
(:
onomnomnom.
Yummy.
<3

I'll still say that you shine brighter than anyone.

Ooeer.
My first blog. Get me eh?
Don't be expecting the next Tennyson. 'Cause i'm not that talented. This'll just me complaining or me being really stupid. And aslo so Shaunie and I can be awesome and pathetic together
-thumbs up-

But yeah.
My weekend has been really dodgy.
Which I'm not too overly fond of.
But still - I'll survive.
I hope.
I'm in need of cheering up preferably from Miss Wheeler and a little bit of 3D films.
They always give me headaches and make me go cross eyed.
Oh so sexy.

Oh!
And what else made my day.
Seeing Heather's Sleeping Beauty pictures.
Eeeee (:
I loveee it.

And for some reason I can't stop listening to Michael Jackson - Dirty Diana.
Which is rather amusing 'cause I never used to like this song.

Where's my real life diary guy at?
:(

Wanting to curl up into a ball and die,
drinking like there's no tomorrow,
trying your very best and failing,
sleepless nights with only doubtful thoughts for company
and
wishing there's so much more to life.

welcome to my weekend.
(:

(and I don't know why I did this blog in this colour.
My mood = the colour I do, prepare for rainbows)

<3